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The little orange submarine has come to take me away...

2009-04-14T06:11:18Z

I finally feel like I am taking the necessary steps towards fixing myself.

My drive to do well in school is returning and I am trying to hold on to it for dear life. I feel like I am at a make or break point collegiately and I really don't want to break. I have been playing this college game for nearly 4 years now and for the most part I don't have much to show for it. Granted, the past year or so of my life has been filled with more turmoil than bliss, but certain events that have occurred in the past couple months have given me a bit of a boost and I tend to ride that out as long as possible.

My house is depressing as all hell. Almost everyday I come home to fights, arguments, and (moreso than anything else) the nearly unanswerable questions of "What are you doing with your life?" "Where do you plan on going from here?" "How do you plan on paying for your education?" and the all to familiar statement, "We are sick and tired of throwing away money on classes you end up dropping." - The sad thing is that most of the time (nearly always) I don't know how to respond to these inquiries.

I want to do well, and I want to be out on my own, and more than anything I want to get the hell out of Lakeland and move on to a University and get a degree and start living real life... Financially though, these goals are much easier dreamed/spoken about than put into action.

I want to claim myself as an independent in order to get better student loans, but the paranoia my Mother has been drilling into my brain about health insurance and so on and so forth has definitely taken it's toll, and sank in much farther than it ever should have. I feel like risking two years with no health care to come out with a bachelor's degree seems like a much better idea than letting them hold over my head the fact that I can't handle the real world on my own.

I am 22 years old, and I know I have faults, but I know that I can make it all work out if I was given the chance.

On a lighter note, a certain female has sauntered her way into my life and, in all honesty, has made me feel so much better about myself than I can remember. It's nice to finally find someone who appreciates me for who I am and not what I could be.... And I can't thank her enough for that.

Change is coming fast. Good change.

cleefor @ 2008-07-07T22:42:00

2008-07-08T02:50:03Z

I am behind in school, but the only people who care are my parents... Nothing wrong with the 5 year plan, right?

Lindsey is overseas and it sucks but she is having the time of her life so I am happy for her, and Skype has definitely helped... I didn't realize how accustomed I had grown to talking to her everyday.

I want to play more shows; so those of you who live in places that aren't Lakeland should hook it up for me.

Tyler came home on the 4th and will be here until the 20th.. It is really nice having him back. My parents are so happy.

Ohhhh, and Spiritualized is coming up on the 23rd and I am so ready for a break from Lakeland life... I think I am going to stay in Gainesville a couple nights afterwards.

Also I just registered for two Photo classes in the Fall so that rules, and after Fall I am done with PCC and on to bigger and better things.

cleefor @ 2008-06-09T14:54:00

2008-06-09T18:58:20Z

Reminescent of the White Stripes first video with the legos... but this one is with dice...

Fujiya and Miyagi - Ankle Injuries

Neat.

cleefor @ 2008-05-22T11:18:00

2008-05-22T15:20:28Z

www.myspace.com/wirebangers
www.myspace.com/tennesseelouis
www.myspace.com/sonnybooth

cleefor @ 2008-04-10T23:57:00

2008-04-11T03:59:59Z

Stress and Anxiety and Anxiety and Stress...

...and Relief.

www.myspace.com/tennesseelouis

Finished two more songs today... Just four or five more and the final mixing begins.

Watch this...

2008-04-01T17:07:08Z

Even if you dont give a damn about skateboarding... I promise it is worth it.

The intro to the new Lakai skate video "Fully Flared" with an M83 song as the soundtrack... Soooo Awesome.

Wasnt it worth watching? I wonder if they had the song picked out before filming or if they just happened upon it...

cleefor @ 2008-03-26T18:54:00

2008-03-27T02:58:32Z

Well, my life just took a solid turn for the better...

A women in my Digital Photography class gave me a garbage bag full of expired film today that have been kept refrigerated up until 3 weeks ago! About 150 rolls!!!

Yooooo

2008-03-20T17:57:32Z

I know some of you have some decent photos of me laying around or floating through your hard drives... if you do... Can you send 'em to a brotha?

Let me know. Thanks.

cleefor @ 2008-03-17T18:26:00

2008-03-17T22:47:07Z

So, all in all, the 21st Birthday Experience went very well.

Friday spent at a bar in Gainesville with a few of my best friends and far to much Jaeger. Saturday spent surrounded by more good friends and good music and far to much not good beer. Played my first solo set of half-assed music during which lyrics were forgotten and songs were prematurely stopped due to an influx of booze. And of course some drunken sing-a-longs. Very Gainesville/Very Fun. Thank you to all who made that possible.

I think Brian Clark Miller, Kevin Booth (I guess I should call him Kage) and I are going to be getting together soon to try and fire up some sort of band or something... Seems like a good idea.

Just trying to remain focused, busy, and positive. Optimism is key in times like these.

Bad moves lead to realizations lead to good moves lead to great things... I nearly botched something great for shot at nothing. From here on out I am going to be less of a fuck-up. Fo Sho.

Photoshop is out of control.

2008-03-13T02:06:40Z

Before:

After:

Succesfully shaved around 8 years off my Dad.

So far turning 21 is looking pretty good...

2008-03-12T05:20:09Z

Solid Gift.

My camera collection is growing... All I really want now is a TLR and a decent strobe kit.

cleefor @ 2008-03-05T22:05:00

2008-03-06T03:12:25Z

So I never thought I would say it... but Photoshop is soooo fucking cool.

We went over this kind of stuff tonight in class... making people pretty... It is one of the neatest and creepiest things I have learned/seen in my life thus far I think.

Pretty Powerful Ad.

And I made this in class tonight... It isn't really super awesome or anything but it was my first time trying to do anything really so it is definitely a start...

Oh and also I recorded some music and put it up on a Myspace...

www.myspace.com/tennesseelouis

Feedback is appreciated.

And I turn 21 in 9 days.

cleefor @ 2008-02-27T22:18:00

2008-02-28T03:25:34Z

So... on my way to my Photoshop class in Winterhaven I stopped in the 7-11 and cought a glimpse of this literary gem dawning the shelves of the magazine rack...

...Facebook?.....Magazine?

Totally insane.

On the other hand, Kevin Drew has released a new music video in which he buys every single person in the venue a shot of tequilla... 600 shots!

I want be him, or make music with him... or just meet him.

cleefor @ 2008-02-26T16:14:00

2008-02-26T21:22:12Z

School of Language - Rockist

Just heard this band for the first time last week and cought wind of this video today... The cd is called "Sea From Shore" and this song is a combination of four tracks from it (Rockist Parts 1 through 4). I dig it.

Not the best video... but really really impressive song...

Oldie but Goodie.

2008-02-25T23:11:45Z

I have to say... this song is amazing.

No matter how many times I listen to it, it is still just as good as the first time around.

It's never been easy... and you know how hard it gets sometimes.

2008-02-25T00:12:32Z

Yeah, I know Nascar is not cool in any way shape or form, but this picture is really awesome... Pretty snazzy of the photographer to shoot from the opposite angle everyone else decided to take... the strobes look really neat. It's just nice seeing sports photographers get a litte creative.

Anyways, I have been sick as a dog since Tuesday and have progressively gotten worse rather than better. I went to 2 an a tenth classes this week and worked a total of 1.74 hours. I think I may have bronchitis. Impressive.

So, yet another reason why PCC blows the almighty ass; Our Spring Break is different than the remainder of Florida. Niiiice.

cleefor @ 2008-02-12T14:25:00

2008-02-12T22:27:29Z

I know you are resting in peace.

cleefor @ 2008-02-11T12:59:00

2008-02-11T17:59:57Z

Happy Birthday Gordon.

Everything is going well.

2008-02-09T19:36:44Z

The past couple weeks have been really really weird...

Everything is still sinking in really, but I have had support from people I needed it from and I thank God for that because I don't know what I would do with out it.

I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Trying to keep my mind occupied... School, working two jobs, working at Jenkins, I started working out, and I am going to start recording as soon as I get a chance.

I feel like I am just kind of floating around going through the motions. I think it is going to be that way for awhile.

cleefor @ 2008-02-02T03:28:00

2008-02-02T08:30:18Z

Fuck fret buzz.

Fuck it.

cleefor @ 2008-01-25T14:51:00

2008-01-25T19:54:04Z

CHANGE OF PLANS

The service is being held at The Jesus Christ Church of Latter Day Saints at 2337 South Crystal Lake Drive.

The viewing starts at 1PM and the Memorial will begin thereafter.

Thank you all. I love you all.

cleefor @ 2008-01-25T00:16:00

2008-01-25T05:22:34Z

As of right now the Memorial Service will be held at

10:00 AM on Saturday. This Saturday. Like tomorrow.

Please pass this along and if you can make it please come, we will need all the support we can get.

Get in touch with one another and car pool if you can, gas is to expensive for everyone to cruise here seperately.

Thanks to all of you who have called, commented, messaged, prayed, thought, cried, etc etc.

My cell phone is out of commission for the time being (although I may get it fixed tomorrow) so for the time being I can be reached on the house phone 863.648.1370.

Please call me and let me know if you can make it or not.

Thank you all. I love you.

Life comes at you fast...

2008-01-24T02:19:11Z

Everytime I check another article is popping up, and everytime I look in the mirror my eyes are 10 times as red as they were before.

My father was able to drink himself to sleep, my mother cried enough to do the same, but two bottles of wine and enough tears to fill them back up again tenfold still have me staring at the ceiling attempting to rationalize what has happened and listening to the same 6 songs on repeat.

http://www.tampabays10.com/news/local/article.aspx?storyid=72358

http://www.abcactionnews.com/news/local/story.aspx?content_id=ba6712da-0491-42da-a9fb-190daebb530e

http://www.theledger.com/article/20080123/BREAKING/488808811

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22812729/

Please keep my family in your prayers.

Where the cash at?

2007-12-07T20:15:20Z

I just got hired at the Terrace. Fill out my paperwork tomorrow and start the 17th.

They hired me on as a valet but the bossman said if I work that for a couple months he could work me into the wait staff. He told me I had good spunk... then I laughed in my head thinking of what else that could mean. Good Personality or High-Quality Semen, either way, money money money.

Download Sharon Jones and the Dap Kings. You will be glad you did.

cleefor @ 2007-11-27T13:49:00

2007-11-27T18:55:46Z

Door #1 - Door #2 - Door #3

Grow some balls, take some falls.
Make some moves, walk in new shoes.
Check a new scene, make sure you stay clean.
Take another path, Take another path.

How will I know the outcome if I never go for it in the first place?

AA then Omaha? What do I have to loose?